A Single Dads Adventure
Today was a typical day in my life as a single dad of two beautiful baby girls. K my oldest is 3 years of age, full of energy, and determined to become a Power Ranger one day; My baby V is 18 months old and growing up so fast. I can remember holding both girls in my arms when they were born. I can not find the words to best describe my new emotions that I was feeling on those days, I can only say that they were indeed the two best days I had ever had.
My Wife and I have never really connected in the short 4 years we have been together. The first day we met we conceived our first child that unfortunately we never met. Shortly after our loss we were on pace for another baby, which was never planned but was not surprising. I suppose our connection was due to our age difference, 12 years to be exact, but thinking back, I blame myself for not trying 100% in our marrage, I should have found something that we could of connected on.
I always think of myself as a wonderful father, and a supportive husband. I am guessing that wasn't quite enough for my wife. Our marrage always seemed to be teettering on the edge day to day, I just wasn't ready to "call it quits" with it. That is until June 6th, 2012. After that day everything changed and my Wife that I was convinced I would spend the rest of my life with no matter my feelings towards her ended.
We have been "seperated" for 9 months. I have been the sole parent to my wonderful babies for over a year. I have cleaned every dirty diaper, kissed every boo-boo, and read every book to my babies. But, I am under a constant emotional stress that one day my "Wife" may seek custody.
Today was a good day, we all woke as a family this morning and followed through with our daily routine. Breakfast was cooked, dishes were cleaned and we moved on to playing in the living room while watching our favorite cartoons. I asked if April (my wife) could come over to watch the girls in the AM while I went to my choice of daycare so that I could start my job. I was happy to see that April arrived at 10:00 am, all I needed to do was wait for my mother to arrive before I could leave to sign my girls for daycare. 11:00 rolled around and no sign from my mother, so April wanted to get some sleep because she had a late night out with friends/boyfriend. My mother and sister eventually arrived before my girls naps and we had a great visit. After my girls were settled down for naps, I was off to talk with the daycare.
Unfortunately I had to put them down on the wait list, with the heading of ASAP. Now I'll have to broaden my search for a daycare, I can not be on assistance forever and I really need to work to provide more for my girls.
And as soon as I was home, April was out the door. Typical meet and greet from the mom, but I never let my girls know how I feel toward their mother. I only wished she would put more time into them than her social life.
The rest of our day was awesome! I was a kid again, no worries in my life, just playing with my girls all day.
